come down to lake pontchartrain

All I seem to be posting lately are memes. I guess that tells you how exhausted I've been over the past couple days. Been hit with this weird bug thing where I'm all dizzy and headachey and nauseated but still doing things like going to work and getting dragged around town with my sister looking for dresses to wear to my cousins wedding this weekend and rainbow things to take to Gay Pride which I'm also going to on Saturday. Hopefully I'll be better before then because I don't want to throw up :<

Anyways, HERE IS ANOTHER MEME.

ANON MEME


ALSO RE: DRYA3

Teddy: 'William and I.'
Tommy: 'I'm really attracted to her.'

WHAT THE FUCK WRITERS. THEY ARE NOT 60 YEARS OLD.

I dont think I have ever felt this detatched from the majority my friends in a long time. 

People I was close to seem to only talk to me because they are obliged to, and treat it like a chore rather than because they want to actually talk to me. Am I the only one who thinks this is upsetting? This is probably being my brain being all paranoid and schitzo, but ngh, I don't know. I've lost so many close friends in the past couple of weeks, and I really dont like it. Never have.

Fuck why does this always happen to me?

The fact that I am moving away for university too, meaning I will be cut off from everyone who I can visit will make it 10 times worse. I have to see them at least once a month. And on a student budget, thats really not happening. Nrh. If I wasn't so.. needy, this wouldn't be a problem.


I think the realisation that I probably will never get to meet any of the people I care about stateside is finally hitting me. I can't go over, I'm poor, I have no money. I really want to go, but if I do I wont be able to put down a deposit on my dorms, get internet acess, actually eat and shit. it was such a pipedream. I really wanted it to work. But hey, nothing ever turns out for the best for me.


Nrhhh. I should just go back to bed. But then again, been doing that for the past four days, and nothing is helping.